Total number of days: 97
Total number of riding hours: 478
I arrived back in Eugene this afternoon (surprising my parents a good deal in the process, by showing up unannounced on their doorstep). There were lots of reasons for me to stay and continue to explore New York or the east coast at large, but ultimately, as my mind started preparing to go home, I found myself wanting to take the quickest trajectory possible. I drove from NYC to Milwaukee with a friend in an epic sixteen-hour marathon, and hopped on Amtrak's next "Empire Builder" from there, passing up the opportunity to stick around and explore Milwaukee or Chicago for a bit. I didn't even stop in Montana to visit my little sister along the way (sorry, Amy).
The solitary train ride was a fantastically appropriate way to end this trip: it directly retraced my ride through much of Wisconsin, to the point where I could see my ghostly self navigating paths from my window; it afforded me some much-needed time to catch up on sleep, as well as the first quiet solitude I've had in days; it chose one of the most heart-wrenchingly beautiful ways to enter the Pacific NW, by way of the Columbia Gorge; it gave me the blessed gift of slowing down my life once more, returning me to a frame of mind similar to riding, where I am content to arrive when I arrive, and time has little relevance beyond the position of the sun.
When I made the decision to be done, I knew it was the right one, and I still think as much. Passing through endless miles of wilderness and expansive plains filled with pronghorn and coyote on the train ride home, though, left me longing to be on the other side of the Plexiglas that kept me separated from the crisp air and the austere vistas of approaching winter. I think it's less the case that I'm ready to be done, and more that the rest of the world is ready for me to be done, but that's okay; I think it's more prudent to heed the season's warnings than to entertain my desires for movement. I started seeing snow on the ground as early as eastern Pennsylvania, and though the weather has been relatively sunny for the last couple of days, it hasn't gotten above 50 degrees, and has consistently dipped below freezing at night. Animals much smarter than myself are already starting to migrate or stow food in anticipation of hibernation, whereas I've spent the summer burning through most of the physical (read: fat) and financial reserves I have.
Finally, the recognition I deserve: a readerboard in Davis Square, Somerville, MA.
So what to make of all this travel? I've learned many a lesson this summer, both practical and existential; indeed, I think this much time for self-reflection opens the doors to an intense amount of personal growth, as long as one is open to such growth occurring. Unfortunately, I don't think I have any succinct pearls of wisdom to offer, except maybe to tell people not to doubt themselves; that I think everyone has the capacity to be stronger than they give themselves credit for. An open mind, an ounce of common sense, and a little humility will carry you far. Other than that, I think life lessons only carry lasting meaning in the context of direct personal experience, and not the vicarious word of another (with an exception to be made for basic survival, e.g., don't go swimming in the great grey-green, greasy Limpopo River). In the words of the great Levar Burton, you don't have to take my word for it; get out there and discover your own truth, whatever it may be.
Well, maybe just one. Traveling by train reminded me of something I experienced while heading the opposite direction earlier this summer. I've only ever carried a somewhat disjointed perspective of the country, climbing on a plane in, say, Seattle, and touching down in far off LA or DC, worlds apart from each other, with different people, different behaviours, and different expectations of life. To be sure, I've observed an astounding amount of differences in people across the country, but this summer I got to witness them with a continuity that only slow terrestrial travel can afford; I watched Oregonians turn into Idahoians turn into Wyomingites into South Dakotians, Minnesotians, Wisconsinites, Yoopers and Michiganers proper, Ohioers, Pennsylvanians, New Yorkers, Vermontonians, New Hampshirettes and Massachusettsers (my apologies for any made-up demonyms), comprising a pastiche of humanity the width of a continent. And though such differences abound according to the necessities or histories of a given region, in the end we really are all just people, with all the same passions, the same insecurities, the same needs, the same concerns, the same capacity to love each other, to sacrifice for one another, to give and to share even when it doesn't make sense to do so. As I traveled from state to state, and as the similarities began to stand out more than the differences, a very simple idea occurred to me: the only borders that exist between people are the ones we make for ourselves. To the extent that this notion applies not just to political geography, but to social interactions, and perhaps life in general, I think it bears repeating: the only borders that exist are the ones we make for ourselves.
And what now? What on earth follows almost four months of solitary travel? How do I fit back into the life I left behind? Do I even still fit?
Well, I don't really know the answers to any of these questions. I do know that being apart from my family (and friends) for this long has magnified their importance in my life, and I would like to be able to be closer to them than I have been for the last several years. I'm planning on applying to graduate schools for Fall 2010, and to that effect, it doesn't really matter much to me where I am over the next year, as long as I get to be close to my loved ones. If you want to find me, though, your best bet would be to look in Eugene, Portland or Seattle, or somewhere in between; I get the feeling I'm going to be doing a lot of floating back and forth.
But most important to me is to be able to maintain a sense of peace in my heart that I found in northern Michigan, and has stuck with me ever since. I have mild concern that that feeling may disappear in the hustle and noise of city life, but I'm not too worried. I think what I learned in Michigan was how to find peace in moments, not just places; if that is the case, then I've no cause for worry, because life is full of nothing but opportunities to find and recognize that peace.
A million thanks to all of you who followed me along on my travels this summer, who gave me support, company, food, housing, directions, wisdom, stories, laughter, and more; it's nothing trivial to say that I really couldn't have done it without you.
To the extent that I created this blag to communicate my experiences with bicycling, I don't think I'm going to continue with some mundane narration of my day-to-day life (lord knows the intertubes already have enough of that), unless something interesting happens to me that's bike-related. A lot of stories still remain untold: meeting Crash, the intrepid world traveler who trades everything he needs for custom jewelry, and was once attacked by pirates in the Carribean, whose current goal is to kayak down the Mississippi; cracking my rear rim beyond rideability in Middle-of-Nowhere, South Dakota; stealth-camping amidst one of the country's largest populations of law enforcement in Comstock, NY; that cryptic citation for public nudity in the Badlands; dissecting fruitfly ovaries at Brown University with my friend Alan; I guess at this point, you'll just have to come find me if you want to hear them. But! There will certainly be more bike trips in the future, so it might not hurt to check back in every few months or so, if'n
you're interested, that is. Until then, friends...
Love,
Scott










Protecting the jail.
